I interrupt September’s Wedding Recap Month to bring you a post today (and one tomorrow) about self care. I was going to wait until November, but with work and school in full swing and the holidays approaching, I feel that now is the time to work to get to a place of balance, gentleness, and peace.
Hi friends! This is a blog post and video that I never intended on sharing (more on why in the video below). But lately, I’ve been so aware of how important it is to share our struggles and our triumphs with one another as a testament to God’s faithfulness and redemption in our lives.
I made a video to share my counseling journey because 1) I think it’s important to “vlog” from time to time so that my readers can get a sense of who I am in real life; and 2) because this story is, as I say in my video, steeped in emotion. And sometimes writing doesn’t convey the right emotions–I didn’t want to risk that.
If you have twenty minutes and you’re interested, here’s my counseling journey. (If you’d rather watch this video directly on the Vimeo website, here’s the link.) In case you get bored of watching me, don’t worry, Charley put on a FULL show himself while I was filming! He’s the comic relief as I’m pouring out my heart and fighting back tears!
As I said, I spent too many years thinking that I wasn’t unwell enough or in a bad enough headspace to need to see a counselor. I wish I hadn’t believed that lie with all my heart. I wish someone had told me to get help, which is why I’m vulnerably sharing today. We are God’s redeemed people and He fully desires us to live in freedom and joy–for me, I needed to get out of my own head and work with a professional to find the peace and balance I was seeking.
I believe it was God who did the healing in those seven months, not me or my counselor. But I am completely certain that God used my counselor and my willingness to bring that deep healing and restoration that I don’t know I would’ve ever found on my own.
Perhaps you’re in a similar place? You don’t think it’s that bad but you know that you need help? If you have any questions about counseling or my experience, and you don’t want to post a public comment, please don’t hesitate to email me at firstname.lastname@example.org. Big, huge hugs!
Stick around: tomorrow I’m sharing specifics of what I learned in counseling. The post is titled, “Practicing the Lost Art of Self Care!” If you’re struggling like I was, you shouldn’t miss it!